So it is…

It’s funny. They say that Singapore is a less-discriminated place, but yet how discrimination reigns within teens ( at least my friends ) is funny.

Serangoon JC.

I never thought that coming here meant that I would actually be discriminated against for being “less-smart”, but people from CJC.  It’s funny huh? I always thought that going to a JC, even SRJC gave me a chance to renew this “slacker” title of mine. I was never one of the premier scores in a secondary school, and I thought me going to SRJC would give me an opportunity to change this. I guess not. My opinions are seemed to be less credible, and if I give some bad advice, they blame it on SRJC. I do well for promos, it’s only cause its SRJC. like fuck you man.

Even though, i’ll admit that I was never happy to be admitted to SR, i’ll fight for its dignity all the way because I’m proud to be an SRJCian. and for those of you who actually feel that we’re not as smart as you are, well then you can kiss my ass. Sure, O levels, you did way better. But we’re all taking the same exams, and i’ll show you that we’re now of the same level, and we’re all the same, and when it comes down to crunch time, let’s see which is better. All the talk about how smart you are, or SRJCians kicking your asses at the A levels. bitches.

My own “friends”…

Good guys huh?

It’s been awhile eh?

It’s amazing how I let myself be taken advantaged of over and over and over again. IT’S AMAZING. Seriously.
If it’s not the CD, then its the movie, then its alot of other crap.

You know how they say that good guys finish last? I think this could actually be true. I never believed it, but I think I’m starting too.

I always believed that 1 good deed deserves another.. where has that gone to? =(

ORAL PRESENTATION

KayKay ( sense the wordplay people ) , I think my presentation’s becoming more awesome. No longer scared, no longer nervous, though I still forget to do certain things at times… but I think i’m becoming pretty good, though I shouldn’t be complacent.

This blog’s becoming more of a rant place, the posts are boring and wordy, and sometimes not even wordy… just boring. with 1 or 2 lines. =/

like this.

or this.

You see, before I blog, I actually have a buttload to say in my mind, but once I start typing, I forget.

like this.

Kaybai.

Speechless.

Dooms-Day. cliched, i know.

I thought I’m usually pretty good at giving nice advice, and comforting people, but right now I really really dunno what to say. I’m…………..turning to the highest one.

Dear God,

It’s about time I turned to you, though the people I pray for may not necessarily believe in you, but I just hope that you’ll guide them through this whole episode of their lives. Come what may, life still has to go on and I hope that you’ll help to cushion the pain or enhance the pleasure. Of course, we hope for the best for everyone, and that most of us would be promoted or have the re-exam. Retain or promote, I hope that we’ll all be able to continue living life normally and for those who retain, I just hope that they can accept what-ever lies ahead and that as time goes by their parents will come to accept the fact too.

Also, may they reflect upon how they’ve done over the course of this year and that maybe next year they’ll make some changes to their life which has caused them down this path. It isn’t easy, and especially in today’s society, but may you just shelter them over all the stigma and discrimination that our society offers these days, and that they’ll have future success in their lives ahead.

I just hope you can bless everyone, that they know that you have their best interests at heart, and you do things because you ultimately have a plan for us, and that there is really no need to rush life. But of course, if its possible, just grant most of them this chance to escape their sin and hopefully next year they’ll be able to repent and do much better. Just bless all of us with the best possible outcome we can have. Amen.

I know, most of you don’t believe this, but I just hope that you all can pull through, especially those who are right on the border. BTW, i’m not saying that i’ll get promoted, i’m still hoping and praying for the best. But tomorrow is gonna be a heck of a day, and I just hope that we’ll be able to pull through together.

I’m gonna miss you guys, for those in my class. Just remember, I’m always here for you. Though I may not show it, express it, nor act it, i’m here, whenever, wherever.

MAN I FEEL SO HELPLESS NOW, to see so many of my classmates/friends worrying and I’m not able to do a darn thing about it. I suck. =(

TGITuesday… or is it?

First Bummer

No new tv episodes this week. That sucks. I have nothing to do on tuesday now =(

Second Bummer

My OP was full of fail. Like seriously. K maybe not FULL of fail, but still fail. I used too many hmms…umms…lah…hmms… =( Maybe i’m Singaporean afterall.

Third Bummer

This thursday / friday. Man there’s gonna be alot of crying. I’m guessing. RELEASE OF PROMO RESULTS AND COMMENDATION DAY. Well, I guess I’m getting overconfident that I’ve promoted. I..must…not…do…this…again… I’m gonna retain. I’m gonna retain. I’M GONNA RETAIN!! ( so that if I actually retain, I don’t feel so bad ). And I hope my friends make the bar. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Fourth Bummer

I can feel the effects of next year already. No clique, No 1s07, No MICK. =( . Well, I’m still hoping somehow all these will remain the same, but I highly doubt it. Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn, next year’s gonna suckass. and Kevin’s writing a BOOK. That was my ambition once, but noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo my words speak louder than my actions. =(

K-time-to-go-emo-and-think-about-life-and-then-go-miss-my-friends-and-then-die-eventually.

MEL!!! =)

Sexy =) but i look so unglam.

Hey MEL!!!

Anyway, I wanted to reply you, but it’d make your tagboard super duper long… so here it is =)

Well, my abrasion’s gone now!! =) , but I guess you’ll fine that out tomorrow. LOL

Thanks for your motivation too luh. I wouldn’t have completed it without you. =) Chatting was fun! and.. running… lol. WE totally owned the Nike+ Human RACE =)

AND I WAS SUPER UNGLAM… as you can see ^^^^ =( LOL.

Yeah, BFFs all the way. Doesn’t matter if we’re not in the same class next year. We’re still gonna rock it. and the years after that, for the years to come =)

AND YES, I ROCK. AND SO DO YOU. =)

Accomplishment!

10km. Far? Ask any SRJCian. They’d say ” no kick la. “

I actually ran 3km with carmen and ivan. I mean, that’s like an accomplishment in itself. (Y) But yeah, overall i took… 1hr 25 mins to complete 10km.
Mel caught me at 4km lol. Ran with her after that for the remaining 6km. =) That was fun mel, awesome time (Y)

SRJC has actually instill some love for running for me. i can’t believe it. seriously. I’ve never loved running as much as now. I regret not running morning run last time, but now, 10km… shiok! =)

K, time to sleep. aye. bye. sense of accomplishment. talk more tomorrow. bai.

Retaining…

This goes out to all those in danger of retaining…

Don’t matter who says what about you, doesn’t matter who thinks what about you.. The matter of fact is that you’ve come so far, and you’ve realised your mistakes. It’s time to change them. Retaining may be a little bit depressing, but having a 2nd chance is what some of us need in life to finally realise what we should do to succeed and maybe you guys have just been given that opportunity. Don’t see this as a setback, see this as an opportunity for self-evaluation. The road before was tough, and so will be the road ahead, but just focus on improving yourself constantly and not repeating the same mistakes you’ve made this year and I’m sure we’ll meet in university. ( if I do get to uni … =/ )

For Melissa…

Hey, maybe you’ve assured yourself as a retainee, when rest assured you’ll defintely not lose your friends, and we’ll be here to support you all the way whether we’re J1 or J2. MICK <3. Anyway, life’s gonna suck without you next year, whether I’m a J1 or J2, because we’ll probably end up with different combinations anyway next year. You’ve made this year so special, and well, its defintely gonna be different next year, but I know it, and i’m sure you do, we’ll be here for each other despite the differences… and we’ll make it through all the way. I’m always here to support you. Love ya. <3

For Emma,

Hey, even though we’ve barely known each other, studying at airport shouldn’t start MUCH earlier. LOL. But… all this while, you’ve been here to take my crap, and I just wanna say that now you know that you need constant hard work to pull through, so hopefully next year you’ll do it. =) And don’t worry, whether J1 or J2, we can always have study sessions at gloria jeans’ and buy mcspicies and have stomaches =).

For Hansel,

Hey dude. Since Primary School, we’ve come a long way. Just hope that you will as well use this chance to re-evaluate yourself, and I will too. Too much dota has caused our downfall man, as well as overconfidence of course. You know i’m always here to help. We’ll go back to Whampoa one of these days and have loy kee as well as KFC and play chinese chess (literally) under the void deck. =) NO MOAR DOTUH!

And I just hope that I’ll make it through.

D-Day

Sheer worry. =(

Such a feeling.

I know this feeling. I’ve had it before.

It didn’t allow any time for me to break my fall.

I was overcomplacent, again.

I’m going to be punished for it, again.

They say life offers no 2nd chances,

though I felt like I’ve had 5.

And blown them all away

with a little simple mistake,

overcomplacency is my current enemy,

retaining is my woe.

I wished I could turn it all back,

like all the previous times before,

and try and try and try again once more. – Kenneth.

Meh, basically this says it all. Yes, i just made it up in.. 5 mins, though it doesn’t really rhyme. =/

but anyway, yeah. I’ve had this feeling before.

*Flashback* I was on my way to school, a beautiful “i-can’t-remember-what-day” morning, and suddenly this feeling hit me. I didn’t know what it was at that time, I just knew it felt horrible, but I tried to get it out of my head as I headed to school for what was probably my most important day of my 16-year-old life. O level results.

Yeap, that’s right. This feeling goes not too far back, only 1 year ago. And this feeling lead to a hopeful young boy having his dreams crushed. I need this to not be true now. Seriously. I’ve spent the last few days worrying about this, and now I know that I cannot afford to retain. I don’t want to retain. I guess I should’ve made that choice earlier, its too late for me to turn back now. Just to sit back and wait, and hope that lady luck shines on me on that day, and that the devil stays away from my papers.

God bless me. I wanna feel better.

Orientation 2010 as Freshmen.

Retaining? Seriously?

Today, i had a, well, so-called, heart-to-heart chat with hansel, about the true facts of retaining, the possible benefits and detriments, and I kinda realise how much I’ve grown since secondary school. I used to be so ignorant, so opinion-less about life, and now, well, I guess i’m less ignorant. lol.

I seriously think that retaining is a true possibility now. Physics, Chem, Maths, all gone. but honestly, from where I stand right now, retaining doesn’t seem so horrible. Gives me time to re-evaluate myself, gives me an opportunity to start afresh, chances to change certain decisions made.

I have too many thoughts in my brain, too many emotions. They don’t belong here, and certainly can’t get out of my brain. Peace out. Orientation 2010 as Freshmen.